VA, Opioids & Me

The Real Story of My Life and More...

VA knows I’m Eccentric.But they’ve had me on Opiates and Opioids for 16 years  Hell, I don’t even know what they injected in me. They shoved orders at us, NOT ON MY PROPERTY!!! Without cause, warrant or even probable Anything??? Where is Miranda when you need him?

Figured it out. I have enough screws, metal rod, wires, battery and a microchip to a small lightning rod. Example, past winter, each weather front. Cold, storm, or both affect my internal implants depending on severity of fronts for a small. Plus, this is first winter without Opioids.

Addiction need tough love, requires soft glove.

Never regret (regrets = bad decisions) Military Service. Moving to Tucson, buying this house. Leaving everyone, everything. My back was against the wall, again! VA specialist said surgery and possible 18 month recovery. Just gone thru a Tornado from being laid off in 1998 to a fork in my road in 2006. I held on! Funny thing, late 70s and 80s, trained by Nam Vets to fight that way, think about Communism after living thru Psychedelic Influence on Society as well as its injection into the breeding and growing Civil Rights was fun. I think we all been mistreated somewhere down the line.

Landed in a desert, the “Old Southwest”, Tucson, as wild as can be. Trained in murder and mayhem, but taught to control. Kids off duty sometimes forgot that role. 78% minorities faced jail, hired lawyers or signed. Had my personal trauma, had my reasons behind. Bunch of boys acting hard. Strange place, strange people. Many rules, plenty schools.

Just gotta be playa or pasta. Hope you’re not cooked, just bend. I love good pasta.

It’s taken 20 years to find some balance in my life. Tenuous and difficult since Im still a “Guinea Pig”. VA hasn’t healed me, despite best intentions, now, I’m trying to regain control. I’ve been dealing with migraines since ’83 and now two broken teeth. Worse. Lucky, got even meds for that but makes me woozy. It wasn’t a “Game”, just survival. Always interesting to watch people and see the best and the worst. Story didn’t matter, because they made it suit their style. People always surprise, acting against best interest. In a dark alley, company meeting rooms, squad soldiers with a mission, Phds with egos. All human nature, bestial at best and cruel usually. When I take the issue, I don’t watch Forest because I can’t see it all.

Who will get you high when you’re 6 feet under? “Every generation blames the one before”. If I could cut my hair could I be a “Big Rock Stray” Take lots of DRUGS like Nickelback? A small victory in my never-ending battle. Understanding a problem. Allergies suck! Go Ask Alice. One pill makes you small. Heroin killed Janis. Painkillers are just a love trap, tap, tap, tap. When Smiling faces become haters!!! It’s about keeping your cool. Dry Ice.